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It's almost been two weeks and only can I even dare to bring myself close to a keyboard and somehow try explain what happened to you.That sounds so dramatic...But honestly, to me, it was.Being on the other side of a gun is one of the worst experiences of my life. It's traumatic, it does things to your heart that a hard punch does to your face. It hurts bad and will take time to heal.And yet somehow I can't bare to just rock up here on my blog and give a detailed account of what happened. What would be the point of that? So rather, because I do want to somehow talk about it, I'm going to use this space to write to you dear Jo'burg, very much with out the 'y'. Not to sure what I'll say or if it will make me feel a bit better but here goes.(how I want to start)Dear Jo'burg,WTF!!!(and here is rather how I will start)Dear Jo'burg,WT... no wait. I'm so disappointed in you Jozi. And this disappointment has led me to feeling like an idiot. Not many people are surprised to hear about and armed robbery these days. So why do I still then feel so utterly violated?Why is that the in the police statement I read things like this: "I did not give the men permission to take my possessions". Are you kidding me? You're telling me that in a city like this the bad guy can get away simply by stating in court "they asked me to take their phone and engagement ring" and there they go? Not that I have much faith in the police, sadly. They didn't even bother giving chase, or taking all the statements from victims involved. Anyway, I don't want to sound like a pessimistic-must-immigrate-immediately saffa, don't think these thoughts don't often cross my mind, but where does that get me?You dear Jozi have caused me to go through a million different emotions on a daily basis since that sunny afternoon. Anger like you can't believe and I'm sure can understand. Thankfulness, because I simply open News24 to see that it could have been so much worse for us. Irritation, because why do I have to be thankful in the first place that I only got a slap across the face and not a bullet, this just shouldn't have happened. Sadness because that engagement ring to me is irreplaceable, and material as it may be I miss it like an old friend. Even now just typing these words out it's released a dose of adrenalin that I'm not really sure what to do with. I don't really know what else to say to you. I have in the last hour typed out paragraphs of 'questions as to what should be done', rants about having to live like this, and heartfelt statements about how I don't want to leave out of fear. But I keep on deleting these paragraphs every time. So I clearly will just end here.Please Jo'burg, get yourself together, otherwise there would be no point in trying to find the 'joy in the city' if you constantly have to look over your shoulder and feel nervous every time you see young men black men approaching. (if we were attacked by a pregnant Indian woman I'd replace "young black men" with "pregnant Indian woman") Yours truly.

Being now again very much "back in jo(y)burg", back to work (yes, I have a job that keeps me from constantly travelling, and well finances the times I do get to travel), back home (as in with my parents, because I have these big plans that need a savings account.. donations welcome), I find some use in sharing my favourite USA photo's with you. Firstly because, I know how you missed the updates. I know. Secondly because this blog is part of my therapy to deal with the times that I'm not travelling. So here for you and for me:These are from the Washington/Idaho and Montana area:From the 5/4/5 day, drive 5 hours to Seattle, spend 4 hours, drive 5 hours back... because that's how you gotta roll as a traveller. Then the most non-disappointing city of all the world:I'll soon get back into the swing of being a Jozi Tourist again... back to appreciating my own city, stop resenting people who get to to live in Cape Town and New York. Start shopping at intersections again, and love our wonderful weather.

Up until a few days ago I have had three memorable experiences with "snow".I say "snow" and not snow because about 2 out of those 3 times some bubble buster had to break my heart and tell me it's sleet. What ever.Experience number one:I'm two or three years old, my family, minus my unborn sister at this stage, is driving back from Durban. We hit snow somewhere in the middle. I remember white, I remember my dad making a snowball and I remember crying because of the unnecessary pain that snow causes little two or three year old hands.Experience number 2:I was in primary school, and the snow came down hard. Which should have been my first clue that the "snow" was in fact freaking sleet. My memory of this basically involves a very painful snowball.Experience number 3:A few decades later I wake up to white windowsills and a silver car turned snowmobile. I wake up my roommate so we can go frolic about in the "snow" that fell early. We built a snowman...FINE ... a sleetman, (8cm tall). I slipped and fell on ice, in front of my neighbours, my then single and handsome neighbours... Soooo you'd imagine the excitement a southern hemisphere snow-less African like myself would feel when she knows she's about to experience real snow. Super excited, and all this at Christmas time too. What a treat. Just like in the movies, but I could do a whole other post on 'the just like in the movies' American experience. First real experience: Road trip to Missoula, Montana. At first I took a million (now) boring pictures like this one.But truly the magic didn't wear off fast. I've been around old snow, on the Alps of course, but the delight of new, fresh, fluffy, sparkly snow is an experience nobody forgets.First snow experience excitement dance, right before first snow excitement snowball attack.I'm still to be in actual falling snow... which better happen North West America!! No pressure. I'm still to build that SNOWman, debating the whole snow-angel thing, is it really that awesome? I like to have that option.One experience involving snow I can tick off my list is hiking into a forest for 2,5 km taking all my warm clothes off and jumping in a hot-spring. Check.Hot-water springs in middle of nowhere Idaho.You'd think the 2,5km hike back would suck, but no, because it looks like this:Walking back was surreal, I tried not to get too caught up in taking pictures or stretching my limited writing brain at how to "capture this magic". No none of that, just doing my very best at being in those beautiful moments.Now for the snow to hit Spokane(current and month long location btw)... Why I ask you with tears in my eyes would the weather look like this, and not snow???You got distracted by the 'jello wrestling' too huh?(To be fair, there is has been way more sunshine than cloudy days, I just somehow needed to work in my picture of the 'jello wrestling' sign)Anyway, I think I have a few new top snow experiences for next time I'm searching for small talk topics.

I'm simply amazed at the amount of drive through everywheres and convenience of getting anythings here in the good ol US of A. Wow, America, impressive. I for one want to stop and get coffee just about every 50 meters (or yards or feet or something), just because it's possible. As one does when travelling, I compare the strangeness of countries. "Ooo you can drink tap water here but not there" "I can afford a full day at the Spa here, but nothing to eat there" "I would go to jail for this in this country but not in that country... interesting".Out here in the North West of the glorious USA they have a lot more drive through stops. Cool.Back home in darling Jozi we have drive by intersection shopping. (Yes, this is yet another post about fun at the intersection.)So let me share just that:Let's start of the basics, not to uncommon a sight world wide I should thinkThe newspaper guy.The guy who started it all. The guy who made other guys think "hey, that guy earns a living selling stuff at redlights... hmmmm, must find a gap in the market and fill it"So important events created a gap.Just by driving around on a Saturday you'd be able to know some important game was on. Fail-proof.Sadly I have no pictures of this but other events like Christmas and Valentines day will surely fill the streets. I'm not home right now but I could bet my favourite Disney character's life on the fact that Santa hats are being sold on William Nicol right now (well not now cause it's the middle of the night now...well)Then, the basics you'll find just about anywhere:Sunglasses... because you know, you're driving, you forget your sunnies, you're sad because the possibility of an accident just increased, fret not, this guy will be there for you within stops.Phone cover guy, this gap must have been created because busy people upgrade their phones like every week, and who has the time to actually go out and buy a shocking pink cover? Clearly nobody. Again, making perfect sense, license covers, for your car. You're in a car when you see this so it's pretty easy check if you need one.Food guyThat's one less trip to the store for you. Jo'burg can do convenience too.And then there must surely be a big market in the kids section. I'm rather childless myself, but imagine the power of buying toys for kids to shut them up works wonders. Or there must just be a significant amount of parents that forgot to buy little Suzzies friend that birthday gift. Now it's Saturday morning, time for the party, but no gift... suspense. No problem Mom can just drive the Beyers Naude route to fix that dilemma. a barbie poster, fancy?pink ladybugs, yes?a marching Winnie the Pooh, wish I had a better picture of this.a toy bow and arrow kit... hoping that this is a 'toy'fake snakes, how awesomeThere are so many other amusing things sold at traffic lights, I could go on forever, or could at least do this post in volumes or maybe alphabetical order. Hmmm... coming next. Volume two: Atlas posters to chargers. Volume three: Dinosaur blowups to Tacky paintings... we'll see.under what to add "juggling plastic chicken guy" ??? And just because I'm in the States at this minute I'll end off with this pretty darn weird thing you can buy at the side of the road.

Honestly the urge, itch, scratch, desire, pain, agony, character-building-in-between travel times, can get so challenging for me at times, that all I want to do is race to the airport like a mad woman and ask anybody, anything if I can climb into their suitcase.Sadly this is not allowed, and I'm so painfully well behaved, so I have to find other ways to deal.This blog as some of you know if my therapy for just that. Learning to appreciate what I do have around me, my hometown, good ol Jozi Jo. So today, with no hope of any free-time in my so called 'flexible' schedule, being overcome with intense despair of not travelling, I decided to go take a picture of my pool and self-help my way to loving the here and now.Because my backyard looks like this:which is by no means supposed to evoke pity by the way, I know it's awesome... I'm just reminding myself that it's awesomeAnd not like this:Taken this weekend, at Pilgrims Rest Or this:my parents having a glass of sunset wine this last weekendMy pool is now the symbol of these happy thoughts to hold onto.-It's gorgeously hot out today, so yay for having the pool.-I actually haven't even used it since being back, so a reminder that there is something new to try always, even in your backyard!-I live in a house with a pool, which means a great many things that I am very thankful for.-It's a pool, not the ocean, so no danger of Tsunamis have to cross my worried mind....Or pirates for that matter-I don't have to pay 80 000 VND to use it like in Hanoi. Saving me time and money. Snaps for that.I sincerely hope that this post hasn't wasted your time but in fact has inspired you to: blow up that rubber duck, whip out that bikini and love your own backyard.Splash xx***As established in a previous post... I'm a brat, because really, all I have to do is wait 2 more weeks and then I'll be off to travelling the States, can't wait. But o how deeply I will miss my pool! #appreciate!